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.......... I finally mustered up enough courage to actually tell you how much you still mean to me and that I've liked you for (exactly) a year already. Definitely thank God you don't think I'm a psychopath or anything and that we actually had a decent conversation after like... Five months? But even though I sounded all happy and shit talking to you, you'll never know how I really felt inside. Neither will you know how much I was actually sobbing behind this phone screen of mine as I replied your texts, fitting in as many ":)" as I possibly could. But then again, what's the use even if you knew? 'Cause things will never be the same again no matter how much I try.

So once again, we'll just go back to leading our own separate lives, going our separate ways and being friends at best after this. Nonetheless, I definitely hope you'll do well in life and that one day we'll talk again. Goodnight and till next time (if there ever will be), my "could have been".