Hi whoever's reading this.... HELP!!!

Please don't ignore this though I swear it's going to be SUPER wordy and not important to you at all ok? Just take it that you're doing a good deed by helping this superstressedjillian94 pleaaaaase please please with a cherry on top and rainbow sprinkles! I really need opinions and whatnot and whatever advice I can get regarding this omg, it's really really really important and I will be very very thankful towards whoever's gonna advice me so bang wo hao ma (help me ok)? :(

Ok here goes.......

Back in January after getting my "O" level results, I was hoping for a super miracle (yes, super miracle 'cause even a miracle wouldn't be enough) to let me score a good L1R5, or at least an L1R5 good enough to get into a JC. But of course that didn't happen and I was only eligible for Poly. I wanna go JC 'cause as of what I've heard from different sources, there's a 70% chance that you'll get into UNI from JC, compared to only a 5% chance if you're from Poly even if your GPA's 3.5 and above. And I want to get into a University, I really do.

After that since I knew I was already 101% going to poly, I should just make the most out of it and choose a course carefully since I'm going to be stuck with it for probably the rest of my life right? And since I was interested in Business courses or courses that focus on Tourism, I put those courses as my first few choices but of course didn't get in also. I got posted to Retail Management @ TP which isn't that bad at all but honestly it's not in my interest to manage a shop or anything I'm sorry.

So of course very sad right, but in late February I got called down for an interview at TP for their diploma in Leisure and Resort Management because I participated in Direct Admission Exercise (DAE) so I was super happy and a knot of emotions after that (nervous what haha). After the interview I was hoping and hoping and hoping but when the results came out, I didn't get accepted and was still stuck with Retail Management.

After alot of thinking, I realised I honestly couldn't see myself in Retail because as I've said, it's not my interest. So I didn't enroll in TP when my package came and I decided to retake my "O" Levels in the hopes of really being able to get into a JC this time. But to get into Temasek/Meridian JC (yes, laugh all you want 'cause I obviously know it's too far-fetched for me, someone who can't even qualify for JC with her "O" Level results, whatever), I HAVE/MUST/DIEDIE need to score A1 for everything, or can only afford to score one A2 at the most. So I spent about $50 to buy whatever TYS and sec 4 textbooks I needed 'cause I gave away at least 3/4 of my sec 4 materials and for the past few days I've really been studying. The sad part is that by retaking my O's, I still have to pay for tuition fees for the whole year, registration fees to sit for the papers at the end of the year and whatever additional assessment books I might need.... And it's not like my parents can print money or that my family is rich or anything so it's really going to cost alot when all that money could be used for something else like a new car which my dad has been pining for, or some family holiday trip my parents and grandparents obviously need and deserve.

Then it all boils down to today. I woke up after dreaming of me flunking my O's this year and when I checked my phone, I saw a text from my mom saying that she saw a TP package in the mail saying that I got accepted into Leisure and Resort Management. Also, I was blog hopping a night ago/two nights ago and came across someone's blog, someone who dropped out of JC. Then I thought about all my smart (really smart) friends who are in JC now and they're so stressed everyday. Seeing all the smart people stressed makes me stressed 'cause I don't even qualify for JC in the first place.

It all seems too much of a coincidence doesn't it? I'm really damn stressed over this 'cause it concerns my future right?! And if I make the wrong decision(s) I'm really just going to screw my whole life up (not like it's not bad enough already) and end up not liking what I'm doing in the future. Honestly I'm willing to study hard for my O's, but at the same time what if I make the wrong decision, what if I really can't survive in JC, what if I'm more of a "hands on" person and will do much better in Poly?

So...... Should I accept TP's offer for a diploma in Leisure and Resort Management OR retake 4 subjects (Core Geog, E-Math, Pure Chem, Pure Bio) for my "O" Levels and diedie need to score A1 for every subject to get into a good JC?

Please sms me, call me, comment here, FB message me or whatever you can do to contact me. I'm really really really clueless on what to do.

H E L P :(