"It's like all day you're okay until all of a sudden everything comes back to you. And you just drop. You feel as if your entire body has been drained and all you feel is a pain in the middle of your chest. A strong pain that can never be fixed. It's hard to deal with it especially when you expected the complete opposite. And what if you really just don't know how to deal with it... You put on that smile on your face so everyone thinks you're happy but really you aren't."