Hi everyone I can't sleep. I've been trying to sleep since 12 hours ago but to no avail. I fucking hate having insomnia. But of course insomnia has some advantages to it too 'cause it forces me to think once I'm done trying to sleep. It forces me to reflect on life and myself as a person. So as I lay awake tossing and turning, staring at my ceiling the whole night, I realized that life is too short to be affected by people who don't give a fuck about you srsly. Just be who you really are, 'cause those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. I have great friends and I should be thankful for them and not bawling my eyeballs out over the friends who aren't here anymore.

And so, that's when it hit me - if you don't care, why should I? And after a grueling 8 (maybe 9) months, I've decided that I'm getting over you. For real. I don't think you'll ever see this. But if you do, study hard and talk to me only when you decide to give a shit about our friendship, because I won't be the one initiating anything anymore, and because I don't want to repeat the past 8 (maybe 9) months of my life ever again. I'm not pissed at you, nor do I hate you. I just don't want to be bothered anymore if you're not going to make an effort. I just thought I'd save myself from most of the hurt really. I've had enough. Of course I'd still like to be friends, good friends even! But once again, if you're not going to bother about me, neither shall I care. Take care of yourself buddy. With love, me.

Ok I don't think what I just typed in the previous 2 paragraphs made any sense because I just typed what I had in mind at that point of time. I doubt anyone understands what I'm trying to say because I don't understand 1/2 of what I just got off my chest either hahahhaaha ohwells! Goodnight/morning!